I think most people forgot my existence. I have not written for a long long time.
Yesterday I meet suhba for a reading. Was crying my eyes out towards the end. He didn't love me. He just wanted the money. Excuse me how far is 7 bus stops away cause that's how far I need to keep my distance from him. 3 symbols me carrying him on a cart, me aging till my pocket overturn into his well that's depthless, and my tree slowing dying with his creeper climbing on me.
I surrender my heart and my everything to God. It didn't matter I don't get my car back. I want my heart healed Lord! My first session at the caregroup had a strong me breaking down in front of everyone. So difficult to walk the road cause so much pain on my feet. Lord hear me... I don't wanna take another step on the cool hard painful ground.
Today I found out that the ice cream cake I bought for his son birthday. He celebrated with his wife. What a happy family!!! I want to slap myself. Dumbass!!!
Yesterday I meet suhba for a reading. Was crying my eyes out towards the end. He didn't love me. He just wanted the money. Excuse me how far is 7 bus stops away cause that's how far I need to keep my distance from him. 3 symbols me carrying him on a cart, me aging till my pocket overturn into his well that's depthless, and my tree slowing dying with his creeper climbing on me.
I surrender my heart and my everything to God. It didn't matter I don't get my car back. I want my heart healed Lord! My first session at the caregroup had a strong me breaking down in front of everyone. So difficult to walk the road cause so much pain on my feet. Lord hear me... I don't wanna take another step on the cool hard painful ground.
Today I found out that the ice cream cake I bought for his son birthday. He celebrated with his wife. What a happy family!!! I want to slap myself. Dumbass!!!
